I’ll be honest, I don’t know when I’m coming back. I’m ok with that. There’s a lot that needs to be taken care of, both with me and those close to me. I’m not going to go into any real detail, but I just need a break. I kinda realized that I’ve been going hard on Social media for maybe a year or more. I mean there have been down times, but not a real break away from the rancor.
Ethan and I had a great talk about the strength of being able to adapt, and I think the downfall of that is that you never really unpack. That, and you just learn how to pack lighter each time you move. It’s strange, in the physical you accumulate stuff, right? You buy a chair here, a new shirt there, and over time you have a lot of stuff. That doesn’t make anyone a bad person. There have been certain points in life where I’ve had an accumulation of things, and they’ve been purged, the methods of the purging differ, but it goes back to just realizing there’s an accumulation of stuff and now understanding that I’m not taking things to the next place.
My wife said something to me when we evacuated from Islamorada before Irma to Atlanta last year. She told me that I packed my emotions up, put them in the car with our stuff, and never unpacked (paraphrased, not verbatim.). That still sticks with me. Growing up is a constant, it can’t be avoided. I think the older I’ve become, the more I’ve accumulated mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I think that’s just life, honestly. It moves, it flows, and you have to flow with it and you pick things up along the way that help in that time. Some things you keep, other things you have to learn how to unpack, and still other things need to be discarded in order to move forward. I’m thankful to have some time to unpack and really get to the brass tacks of some things. Not that anyone accept a few actually may need an explanation for this time away (“those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind”), but there’s a lot of stuff I can’t take with me.
How easy would it be to just “Thanos Snap” emotions and feelings and the things that you take with you from the places you’ve been?
